School started like 1 week ago and I'm in a new one. So the people there are all strangers to me.

But I think we all know each other now and yeahh....

There's this nice guy sitting next to me. We liked each other from the first second we saw us. And he's really nice.

I think I kinda like him....maybe a little bit more.
He also likes to flirt with me. Actually I don't like situations like this because it's always kinda awkward to me.
But now I really enjoy it! It's like I'm someone else :)
It's like a piece of freedome.

I really think I should lose weight. The last couple days I've already lost some ....but that's not enough.
When I was studying for my finals I ate lots of sweets because of the stress. On this way I gained like 10kg in 2 weeks :/
That's really bad !
I've started losing weight like 1,5 weeks ago ? I've lost like 5 kg I guess ... maybe 4.
But I still have a long way to my goal weight.
My current 'thinspiration' is Kim Hyun Ah. She's a singer from Korea.
She has a pretty nice body and dances really good !!


I just can't stop watching this video because I want to move my body like she does :/

Anyways....so this guy : I think I really like him . But today I found out that he's already taken.
It's always the same .______.
There aren't a lot of guys I'd date etc. And the ones I'd like to date are always taken or I'm too shy or something to talk to them =__=

I think I'll change myself now. I'll loose weight and style my hair much better than now.
So he'll see I'm beautiful.
Maybe at the end he wants to have me instead of his girlfriend ...
I really want to be noticed by my schoolmates.
And I mean noticed as the 'beautiful, thin one ' and not only as the 'smart one' .



I don't think I'm fat. I have a normal weight....I'm a natural curvy girl.
I'm not fat ...but I have curves. I don't want these curves. I need to lose like 15-20 kg . That's what I want.


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let's go back to an other topic: Boobs
my left one kinda shrinked the last 2-3 days....now it's much smaller than the right one o.o
Of course you can't see it through the cloths because the bra is 'hiding' everything ^__^
But it's kinda good, isn't it ? I want my boobs to shrink....but the right one doesn't seem to want -.-"


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